national anthology of the best undergraduate writing 2014
Honorable Mention in Poetry

Missouri Shells

Clara Lee  • 
University of Minnesota

On October blacktop poured over
limestone, the hard ghost of an inland sea, farmland,
then floodplains now emptied by whistle,


we tumble, small and tough under wind.
Over me, Jacob Dearborn is all stonewashed jeans
and potato hands, but I, too, am a scuffling-hard kid


caught knees on asphalt, shoving back punishment
for pinching the still-delicate penis of his best friend,
who yesterday called me a Chinese shrimp with glasses.


Now I think Jacob is trying to kill me
with his damp, white hands and still—I don’t know—
I think I’ll marry him for his pilgrim’s name,


and his white eyelashes long like horses’
and his mean, wet lisp. I cannot wrest his fists from my face.
In a book, I will learn that Dearborns torched orchards and corn


fields to oceans of flame. And smashed on my teeth
his thumb: the salt of landlocked sea-grit, raw dough,
and quick, I hear the interstate: cold water rushing,


another whistle is blowing, and quick, I bite to the quick
of his thumb. Now he is crashing up into the cookie-sheet slide
under which we were hiding, he is crying,


I am running. He is calling me a shrimp—as if I ever belonged
to this dull-hearted ocean, dry-walled, lawned-over, washed-over
calm. I belong to the islands,


plantations, sugar cane trains in Japan,
to the seamstress, to the hatmaker of Kowloon, Hong Kong.
I don’t know. I am panting and wanting for home.